She still using!

I bump into my friend from high school. She still looks the same but alot thinner. I knew in high school someone  told her if you smoke up you ended up losing weight. So she try it and she lost weight. She stunk like she just smoke up before I bump into her. I ask her she still smoking she said yes cause she can't stop. She also told me she afraid if she stop she gain the weight back. Smh stupid for still doing it. People need to grow up!

Stop calling me to remind me!!

Everyone is calling me up to remind me my bro is coming out. Stop calling me to remind me I have a headache thinking about it. I'm surprised my dad didn't call me up to remind me to watch him. What am I going to expect when he gets out. Very annoyed these days!!!

I thought it was next week.

Oh boy I think I'm going to have a headache now. I thought it was going to be next week when my brother gets back. I was wrong its this week!! My head hurts.

New people

When I meet new people I don't tell people where I live growing up. When I did go out on dates I usally have then drop me off 3 blocks away. I don't tell people where I live cause my house got rob when I was younger. I was in the house when they broke into it. From that day on I never tell people where I live. I'm curious how did he know I'm near the street he mention. I'm a private person also. I only tell people I trust and close with. When I didn't have a car. I took car service I would give them a different address. I only bitch and complain about certain things cause I can't talk to anyone about it. That's why I have a blog. I have facebook i only put vacation picture if i go anywhere and food picture. He calls me nosey. I'm not nosey I just want to get to know him better cause i dont know anything about him.I tell him things cause I want to. I told you what part of Brooklyn I'm in. I know I never mention I was near that street. I think people are private cause they don't want to tell there business to people cause they might use it against them. 

The worst thing about the guys who rob my house they were my brother friends.
Sometimes when I meet new people I'm very caution. I don't like to stay in the house by myself. Anything I hear I freak out and run to my car. If you had 2 guns to your face you would be afraid.

Worry

Friends ask me tonight when is my brother coming out. I told them one more week. I told then yes I'm worry he's going to act up. My father told me he has to come back to the house to live. So I could babysit him. He's going to drive me up the walls if he's in the house. When he was staying here. He doesn't care if you have work the next day. He knock on my door at 2 am for smokes. Why do I have to watch a grown man. My other brother said just be careful cause he almost hurt me last time. Yes I am worry!!

I need to start saving!

I'm going to have to start learning how to cook. I do know how to cook but only certain things. I have to start bringing lunch to work. Lunch in the city is to expensive. I have to start saving cause my brother is coming out and he going to ask me for money. I been supporting my brother for a long time.Im only giving him money for food and drinks not to much. If I give him more he might buy drugs with it. People said I'm spoil cause they see my dad gives me money. I ask my dad for the money he owns me he ask me to buy things for him. I never been spoil with my parents. I always had a job. Since I was 16. My brother is spoil he always got everything he wanted from my mom. He never had a job. I can't say never maybe one job and he didn't last that long maybe a couple of weeks. He's need to grow up and go get a job. I can't always support him. I gave him a phone and he always losing it. He raise my bill a month to 600 dollar. I wanted to beat the crap out him. I don't make that much money. He doesn't care I have to work hard for my money and deal with bs at work.  I have to start saving for myself.

Couple more days.

My brother is coming out in a couple of days. Will he drive me crazy? Will he steals from me? Will he start using drugs again? Will he makes threats?  All these questions I'm asking myself. I don't know until he comes out. I just to take a deep breath.

Am I worry?

Yes I'm worry when my brother comes out he going to do the same shit over again. I can't control him. The only person he scared of is our father. But he won't be here. I just hope he stay clean. He's a grown man. He needs to grow up!!!

Brother

My brother is going to be back soon. I hope he learn from this. Everyone is hoping he will learn from this. If he doesn't learn from this I don't know what to. I hope he doesn't give me a headache when he gets out.

This lady!

Every time this lady comes in she smell like weed. I hope she not smoking it in front of her kids. If you smoke up in front your kids that is so wrong. Will the kids do the same when they get older? They might think its ok cause the parent is doing it.

Train on drugs

I called to see how you were doing.This time It's not going to bother me that you were ignoring me cause you weren't feeling well!!

 

Say no to drugs poster!

I was planning to call. I hesitate cause its to late. Smh don't know what to do.