I love you😜❤️

I love you😜❤️

I love you!!

I'm wide awake. There's a giant walking around the house making a lot of noises!!! 

I hope you are not reading. If you are 😜😜😜😜😜😜😜😜😜😜 

es difícil ser positivo

ver lo que yo tengo que pasar. 😜

es difícil ser positivo

ver lo que yo tengo que pasar. 😜

es difícil ser positivo

ver lo que yo tengo que pasar. 😜

😜😜😜

estamos usted me dice no a renunciar a su publicación. Yo nunca dije que era. 😜😜😜😜😜Me importa you😜😜😜.amor, te extraño😜❤️

¿cómo puedo ser positivo cuando mi hermano actúa de la forma en que actúa.

Annoyed😞

Very annoyed 😞😞😞here we go again.

It doesn't matter what you have

it doesn't matter what you have. As long you make the person happy😝😄
As long you are there for the person. Show you care through good and bad. Now you are being negative😜. Hey aren't you surrpposed to be positive. 😜😜😜❤️❤️

I'm scare

im scare u will hurt me. If we ever get together. Why cause im always getting hurt. I trust everyone to easily and I end up the one who gets hurt. I'm really sensitive/emotionally that's why I blog. I keep everything bottle up. i have panic attacks. When I keep everything inside. I'm scare u will hurt me. I don't want another person to complain I got fat and other stuff. No one defends me. I'm scare!!! Ok I admit!

Love u 😜

My brother is driving me crazy.

i bought breakfast yesterday for today breakfast. I woke up this morning late. I didn't need to drive the little one. His mom pick him up yesterday. But I had to pick him up today. I went to look for my breakfast. He ate all my breakfast. I bought the breakfast I could eat cause I'm allergic to everything. Smh he is eating all my food. I'm buying food everyday. I can't believe him. He a pig!! He is smoking my cigarettes. Then he complains about my food is salty. He is driving me up the wall. He is always fighting with the little one. Grow up and go get a job. Annoying.
I'm not being negative. 😜My brother is annoying. Try living with him!! My family is not normal.
There's no peace and quiet in my house.
Whoever I meet. They always ask how come I don't smile. I always have a serious face.😑
Stop reading please!how are you reading this when you at work!
Love u 😜❤️😄
U scared to talk to me in person! 😜 lol

Annoying brother

all day my brother been annoying the shit out of me. He keeps asking to borrow my car. It's no!! He ask to borrow my dad car. It's still no!! If I let him borrow my dad car. If sometime happen who geta blame. I do. He telling me he is a good driver. I don't care. I'm not going to in trouble. I get home from work. I didn't even step inside he bothering me again. Its still no. He is not going to borrow the car. He is annoying. He mess up my car insurance back then. he is not a good driver. He a crazy driver. He annoying!!

I miss you it's not I haven't seen you. I miss you cause I want to be with you! 

Do we think alike cause I see he put something up about spending time with kids is more important . Then spending money on kids. I am living my life. I'm moving on with my past. 😛

I hope he doesn't give up

why do I have this feeling he is giving up. I hope he is not giving up on me cause I hurt him. He doesn't say anything. He really quiet. I'm not giving up on him. So easily now. I know he still loves me. I still love him. I'm hurt. I still care about him. I still miss him. I love you!

I'm always nice to everyone

Everyone i meet im nice to them. I'm not mean. When i go hang out with my friends they would bring there friends. Especially the asians girls they are really mean. They would say things why do I act getto. They would say I don't act asian. I didn't grow up with asians. I didn't know you have to act a certain way. I never did anything wrong to these girls. They are talking so much shit about me. The asians girls would say I'm really fat. I look like a cow. It's upsetting I don't look like a cow . 😞 why would they say that. That is mean. I don't understand them. I don't want to look anorexic. I eat and I don't throw up my food. They said I eat like a pig. At least I eat. Asians girls are mean!!! I have notice my friends from the neighborhood are nicer to me. They said im just like my mom. Treat everyone equal. If I don't like you. I stay away from you. I haven't hang out with these girls. They are not my friends. They are only acquaintance. When my friend ask me to come out. I ask her who coming. If she told me they are there I don't go. I rather stay home. But if I do stay home I get bitch at. That's why I go out. These days I been going to my brother's place. I told my friend do not call me out. If these girls are there. I will curse them out of If I see them. Evil bitches. No wonder I have guy friends. I'm not mean! I'm a nice person.

I look really tired. I have huge bags under my eyes. I work all day. I was driving back and forth to check on the little one. To make sure he ate. The adult doesn't help. Leaves the sink with the dirty dishes. House is a mess. I got to clean up before I go to sleep. What am I going to make for the little one for breakfast. They think I'm superwomen. I'm not! I'm not his parents. But it seem to me I care the most.Tired😴😴😴😴


I wish you were here!
I care about you!
I miss you!
I need you to hug me!
I love you! ❤️

I wish he was here!

He should be mad at me....

He should be mad at me. If he had done what I done to him.I would be mad to. He's not wrong for being mad at me. I am wrong for hurting him. I don't care if he hurts me. I want him back. I won't hurt him again. He can't give up now. I'm not going to up on him. He could push me away. He could hurt me. But I still love him. No matter how much You hurt me . I still want you in my arms. I do anything for him. I hope I could fix his broken heart. I hope he let me back in. I know he closed the door on me. He wants me to suffer I will suffer.


You could push me away.I'm not going to give up. I still love you.

I love you

I love you! I'm a horrible person for breaking his heart. He wants me to really regret it. I do regret for not telling him. I will never forgive myself for hurting him. I made mistake in life. This was the worst mistake I made for not telling him. He wants me to feel the pain for hurting him. I am in pain for hurting him. Love does hurt. I shouldn't have ignore and avoided him. All those months I ignore him and avoided him. I care about him. I was worry about him to. He didn't know I care. I didn't show it. I should of show it. I always wrote about him when I didn't see him. He doesn't know that I care.I broke his heart. He is breaking my heart. He's ignoring me and avoided me now. I know his pain now.  I been calling and texting him. I love him. I'm not going to give up. He hates me .what I have done to him. I know deep down he still care. No one care about me before. I was blind he care.


I care! I miss you! I love you!

debería intentar llamar?

Yo texto él lo que sentía por él. él dijo que no recibe mi texto. debo tratar de llamarlo? Yo quiero que sepa lo que siento por él. Yo no voy a ser molesto. si no se recupera.Quiero decirle en persona lo que realmente siento por él.Quiero que sea feliz. Soy feliz cuando estoy con él.


Yo no cuido esta semana porque yo estaba tan molesta. Me enfermé de nuevo.

mi corazón está perjudicando!

mi corazón está perjudicando! él no dijo nada. que no se recuperó. Yo de él debería dicho. cuando lo vi ese día. él debe de haber conocido. Yo estaba allí por una razón. Qué quiere que le diga la persona? Yo quería ir allí y decirle en persona esta noche. pero nunca a recoger su teléfono. yo estaba en la negación de él por un tiempo. Yo no estaba teniendo un buen día. Me senté en el pensamiento despedida de soltera. Yo debería de estado honesto y le dijo ese día. Salí temprano para que yo pudiera llamar y decirle. él nunca respondió. Le dije que en el texto. Me enamoré de él. él dice él no consigue mi texto. No sé si él consiguió el texto o no. ¿qué hago ahora? debo tratar de llamarlo de nuevo mañana? tendrá que recoger? ¿debo ir a su lugar? Tengo muchas ganas de decirle en persona. mi corazón está sufriendo. Voy a llorar hasta quedarme dormida esta noche. si recibió la llamada y texto. que no le importa me enamoré de él.💔😭

Yo no me doy por vencido!

Yo no me doy por vencido!está escondiendo su sentimiento?¿por qué tengo este sentimiento que le hice daño!Voy a llamarle la próxima semana. tal vez antes. Sólo espero que no cree que estoy molesto. Yo no voy a renunciar!Voy a llamarle la próxima semana. tal vez antes. Sólo espero que no cree que estoy molesto. Yo no voy a renunciar!
Yo no lo puedo llamar mañana. Tengo un baby shower para ir a. entonces tengo que hacer mandados RAN. entonces conseguí una despedida de soltera para ir a. en el momento en que yo vuelva, va a llegar tarde.si regreso temprano y yo no estoy de cansado. Yo lo llamo.

trastornado

No estoy molesto porque él no abrió la puerta. que hizo abrir la puerta. tenemos que hablar. él me preguntó por mi trabajo. Le dije que me despidieron. Le dije que usaron mis fotos de Facebook en mi contra. entonces me pregunto si me gusta. él dijo que su única atracción física entre nosotros. pensé que era más que eso. Me pregunto lo hizo él consiguió mi texto. me dijo que me tenía que bloquear porque él no quería que su chica para ver el texto. No mostré que estaba molesto de que está casado ahora. espero que no vio mis reacciones que estuve conmoción y malestar. Yo muestro mi teléfono a él lo que escribí. Le dije que me gusta. dijo que no es bueno porque estoy casado y está casado ahora. Yo le digo que me caí de amor con mi marido. él me preguntó por qué. ¿qué hizo él. Creo que le dije que no funciona. me olvidé de lo que dije. cuando estoy cerca de él. Soy como una cabeza hueca estúpido. él todavía me pone nervioso. Yo no podía decirle que realmente le gusta mucho. Yo le digo que lo echo de menos. Le pregunto cómo era su salud. dijo mucho mejor. eso es bueno que se siente mejor. Yo no podía creer que él pensaba que tenía otra persona. pensó uno de mi amigo chico era mi novio. Le dije que ese tipo me vea con sólo un amigo. nada más que eso. Crecí con esa guy.I le dijo que nunca como cualquier otra persona, pero él. desde que estado teniendo problemas. la única persona que tengo sentimientos es sólo él. nadie más. Maldita sea realmente me gusta lo que mucho. Realmente me preocupo mucho por él. si no lo hacía no me habría llevaron hasta allí. No podía creer que en realidad fui allí. Yo estaba temblando realmente mala conducción allí. Yo no podía salir del coche en el principio. mis sentimientos por él es fuerte. pero sólo es atractivo para mí. mejor que nada.mis sentimientos por él sigue ahí. no es ir a desaparecer algo pronto. Me importa mucho en él. Espero que él lo sabe.Estoy celosa él está con alguien más ahora.

feliz año nuevo

feliz año nuevo! Salí con una de la chica. ella me estaba molestando a cenar con su single ella. cenamos y le deja. Me acaban de volver a casa de mi hermano. Voy a pasar año nuevo por mí mismo. era 12:00 y yo estaba sola. No es que triste. mi amigo me pregunta durante la cena. lo que está mal. No dije nada cansado. ella dijo que yo suelo comer mucho. No voy a comer hoy. Estoy molesto por eso yo no comer tanto. Yo no quería salir de fiesta esta noche. realmente molesta lo que está pasando en mi vida. Hice lo de texto feliz año nuevo. silencioso como un ratón. oh bien lo intento.